my names kaleen elizabeth dickinson. Instagram
im 20 years old, jersey girl
this is my personal blog, its pretty random mostly boring rants, and things about body image.
im always open to asks, anon or not. i might not know the right thing to say but i will always listen.

rocking the new @griffon_official gear&#160;! #griffon #griffonofficial #edm #bliss #griffongear #getyoursnow

rocking the new @griffon_official gear ! #griffon #griffonofficial #edm #bliss #griffongear #getyoursnow

The worst type of crying is when you are lying in bed, hands over your mouth. Your face scrunches up and you let out that first gasp. The tears are running down your face onto your pillow and you cry and cry so much that you can’t breathe. You ask whoever’s up there, “Why? Why me?” You sob, trying to gasp breaths in between without being loud. You have one hand on your heart and the other on your stomach because they both hurt. Eventually the tears stop flowing and you are left laying there, numb.

—The worst type of crying (via dead-and-scarred)

Dear Future Soulmate,

I’m clingy, but I’ll never admit it. I’ll check my phone every 5 minutes to see if you’ve replied to something I’ve drafted numerous times in my head. I’ll get anxious when you don’t answer me back for a long time, and I’ll think to myself maybe you’ve had enough of me. Yet when your message finally comes, it doesn’t matter what you’ve said because the simple act of replying assures me that you’re still mine. At least, for the time being it will.

I’ll get jealous a lot, but please don’t misconstrue it as me tying you down. I won’t get jealous because I want you all to myself, no. I want you to be able spend time with family, friends, and everyone else in between. I’ll get jealous because maybe, just maybe you’ll find something special in someone else, as you did with me. I’ll be weary that maybe you’ll look at someone just as how you look at me, or your heart will begin to wander somewhere else.

I’m insecure, and it’s of no fault of your own. When I say something a little negative about myself, it’s not a cry for attention nor is it me wanting you to disagree with me. It’s me just being me. Before you, I’ll probably never imagine in a million years that you’d be mine. So by virtue of the fact that we’re together makes me even more insecure. But let me make something clear, I won’t be bagging on myself all the time. I know what talents I possess, what I excel in, the aspects in my physique that work in my favor, and so on. I’m just more vocal on the things which fall in the opposite categories.

I’ll possess many faults, and I’m not looking for you to fix them. I think when I finally meet you, I’ll be more accepting of these faults than I am now. All I’m asking is that you accept them with me.

I know this letter seems to be focusing on the negative things about me, and it’s quite a bit to take in… so let me make a change of pace.

I’ll always love you. When we’re finally acquainted, and we finally begin to personify the definition of love for one another, I’ll never need another definition. I’ve told myself countless times that I would never cheat on someone because I know what that feels like. I’ll love you more than I love myself and I know that isn’t too great but that’s just how I am. I’m going to fall in love with the way your smile dances across your face every time you see me, I’ll fall in love with the way you lose yourself in the things you love, I’ll fall in love with the way your voice fluctuates depending on how you’re feeling, I’ll fall in love with the way you say my name, and I’ll most definitely fall in love with so much more. I’ll study everything about you, I’ll remember the slightest details about you and your life. I’ll know what you look like when you’re upset without you having to say a word, I’ll know how you like your coffee in the morning, I’ll know how long it takes you to get ready before we go out, I’ll know most of the trivial things about you and the rest I’ll learn along the way. I pray you’ll be able to do the same as well.

If you’re still reading, and you haven’t run away… I’ll probably be sitting across from you looking insanely nervous and insecure. I’d be sitting with my legs folded under me on the chair anxiously waiting for your reaction. On top of that I’ll probably be ready to burst into tears of happiness or tears of sadness.

So to end this letter, which my actual soulmate will read once the time comes… I’d like to say thank you. Thank you for giving me a reason to live again, thank you for proving to me that love really is meant for me, and thank you for being my reason to be alive.

Love, Your Future Soulmate

—(via brandello)

Thisss. Oh my goodness, it’s so accurate and perfect.

(via restless-dreamers-wander) misplaced-amazement (via allimag19)

@griffon_official you&#8217;re the best ☺️ #electricadventure #daytwo #MyFavoriteArtist

@griffon_official you’re the best ☺️ #electricadventure #daytwo #MyFavoriteArtist

just saw @victorniglio&#160;! awesome man #electricadventure #edm #music #beach #rave

just saw @victorniglio ! awesome man #electricadventure #edm #music #beach #rave

VIP at #electricadventure with @griffon_official. can&#8217;t wait for his set at 11!! #seaside #edm #music #beach #rave #party

VIP at #electricadventure with @griffon_official. can’t wait for his set at 11!! #seaside #edm #music #beach #rave #party

and again

I want to leave the second I get here, so I’m waiting in the car till everyone else is done having fun.

on the way home from West Virginia @griffon_official and I decided to visit Washington, D.C. for the first time. I definitely will not forget, because who did I meet at the Lincoln memorial&#160;? LIONEL RICHIE! it was so amazing meeting this super sweet, down to earth man. @lionelrichie thank you for taking the time to talk with me. 😁 #lionelrichie #music #legend

on the way home from West Virginia @griffon_official and I decided to visit Washington, D.C. for the first time. I definitely will not forget, because who did I meet at the Lincoln memorial ? LIONEL RICHIE! it was so amazing meeting this super sweet, down to earth man. @lionelrichie thank you for taking the time to talk with me. 😁 #lionelrichie #music #legend

@griffon_official knows me so well❤️ #teacrazy #bentleys #teaoflife #somuchtea 😍

@griffon_official knows me so well❤️ #teacrazy #bentleys #teaoflife #somuchtea 😍

little man cuddles 🐶🐾❤️ #trenton #heartnose #staffordshire #bullterrier #staffy #dontbullymybreed #mylittleman #staffordshiresofinstagram

little man cuddles 🐶🐾❤️ #trenton #heartnose #staffordshire #bullterrier #staffy #dontbullymybreed #mylittleman #staffordshiresofinstagram

home made potato chips 👍 #potatochips #homemade

home made potato chips 👍 #potatochips #homemade

my #mcm, as always, goes to @griffon_official 💙 hope you&#8217;re having fun in virginia 😘

my #mcm, as always, goes to @griffon_official 💙 hope you’re having fun in virginia 😘

perfect picture! 🐶💋🐾 #dontbullymybread #pitsofinstagram #dobiepit #doberman #pitbull #perfectpicture #dobermansofinstagram #bronx

perfect picture! 🐶💋🐾 #dontbullymybread #pitsofinstagram #dobiepit #doberman #pitbull #perfectpicture #dobermansofinstagram #bronx